Transfem

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I’m interested in that feeling of relief some of us get after taking our estradiol dose. I experience it as intense relief that washes over me and bathes me in joy. My color perception dramatically improves at the same time, it’s a very sudden shift.

I got a butt-butt-butt? I got a butt-butt-butt.

So as some of you probably seen, I finally started HRT and I am absolutely loving it. I am doing some higher doses for the beginning to get my levels up fast (5mg every 3 days for 3 injections and then 5mg every 7 days) and I am starting to feel the first emotional changes happening. I am feeling my inner girl without drugs for the first time in my life. I have never experienced this level of joy and happiness before. The level of Euphoria just looking at my beautiful nails gives me is insane. Im also currently at the edge of crying just from listening to some music. It feels absolutely fantastic. I did knew roughly what HRT would bring me emotionally, but not even in my wildest dreams could I have Imagined this level of Euphoria and happiness. Theres no realy way to put this into words without repeating myself a million times.

I am someone who’s dysphoria is best described as biochemical. Today I was falling down an Internet rabbit hole and landed on the use of androgenic anabolic steroids in athletes. Decided to check if there was research done on female athletes.

I am finally able to feel like a real girl an not just a boy in girl clothes. It also requires me geing alone, so I dont speak and doesnt get braought back to reality by voice dysphoria. Im also connecting much more consistent, when being stoned…..

Voice Dysphoria is fucking annoying. I absolutely hate, to become more or less Dysphoria the moment I speak to much, or listen to closely to my voice. Voice training itself is annoying as hell (I Am about to start, so wish me luck I can push through), but it gets even worse to have to listen to closely to your voice, which again induces dysphoria . Probably my second least wanted Dysphoria, right after intense Bottom dysphoria where I once literally wanted to Rio that disgusting thing off.

Hey trans fems!! I’ve had my doses for ages, but I’ve been too consumed with life to worry about trying them. I just got news that my chapter of life is going to be changing soon, and I really wanted to try them during my current stride. So I’ve decided that just for one day I’m going to give it a shot to see how it makes my brain feel, and I’m going to do a proper two week test run another time. What can I expect from the first day? Any things to be concerned about? Is it possible that this derails my productivity or something strange for the first day?

In this 2009 study, 50 trans women with penile-inversion vaginoplasties had their microbiome sampled and it was revealed that nearly all of them had a microflora similar to bacterial vaginosis in natal vaginas, making them more likely to have UTIs and resulting in malodorous discharge.

This is more of a venting post, so be prepared.

Currently the amount of Dysphoria I have is relatively low and while this sounds kinda nice it makes transitioning more difficult. I know that I am trans, but due to having little Dysphoria I dont always have recent “evidence” of being trans (I know for sure I am trans, but Dysphoria is kind of like the most obvious sign of being trans), it always feels like I am “faking” it. I know how bad my Dysphoria has been, I do sometimes have minor to medium levels of Dysphoria, I have one hell of a backlog (even written down), but since all of this happened quite some time ago, it feels like it was just a phase (which it isnt).

My partner is concerned that I’m going to suddenly start being attracted to men once I start on the trans-mission fluid. Apparently she keeps reading Reddit posts about people who’s sexual orientation changes after they start hormones. How common is this? I can’t personally think of a word in which I would be attracted to men. Honestly it kinda crosses me out. I did go through a period where I decided to see if I was bisexual and slept with a couple of dudes, but I found the experience really off-putting. Have any of you ladies experienced a switch in sexual orientation? If so, from what to what?

I’m currently in the process of obtaining the two different mental health referrals my insurance asks for before they will cover my orchiectomy. My doctor set me up with a therapist who can be my first referral, and she’s great; very kind, and understanding of my situation. I am getting antsy though.

Good fucking riddance.

So far HRT is going very well, I’m generally much happier.

I spent years under a strong depression when I was in High School, I didn’t take care of my appearance and that made people think I was a lesbian for some reason.

See title. How do I even cope with never being able to get pregnant? I mourn the fact that I never even once had the opportunity to get pregnant, to feel life in me developing, and all that. Of all things, this gives me the greatest dysphoria. I want to have wider hips and larger boobs, and even though I’m 28 (so hip widening likely won’t happen… maybe surgery?) and I’m 7 months on HRT, I feel like it’s not satisfactory yet. It has made me so much happier and I feel much more liberated having HRT, but even before I knew trans was a thing, even early on, I still had the desire to eventually be able to get pregnant.

Putting on black nail polish used to be the highlight of my week in the early days of transition and way before I came out. I was never good at it, but I liked how it looked on me and it felt like a way to get control back in my life in one of the few ways that I could.

I made a similar post a few weeks ago, but just remembered that the last time I had friends was over ten years ago, when I was ten. My whole life at the moment is going to work during the week and being too exhausted for anything for the rest of the day and having no motivation to do anything on the weekends.

So recently I realised, that the more I transition I Am starting to resonate with women way more than I do with men. Its literally almost every aspect. Conversations are a bit more - let me call it like that - “soft”. No/less crude jokes, less talking while someone else speaks, more friendly vibes and so on. I also would 100% lie, that I didnt like it quite a lot when women ask about where I got my nail polish (I got a huge box with nail polish in it (from a friend) and there is one really cool looking red metallic one and quite regularly when I wear it other women ask about it). I had this realisation this weekend, when I was at an event where I knew no one (the event was 4 days long) and I realised that I kinda dont like socialising with men nearly as much as I do with women. I pretty much had the fun of my life simply because some of the women there were absolutely amazing.

Fun lil thread, what did you dress as for halloween this year?

I recently had vaginoplasty, and I’m looking for a pad of some kind that is not too stiff and not absorbent for putting under me during dilation. Something that I can wipe with water, or optionally alcohol if it’s safe for the plastic, but won’t absorb anything or stain from the blood.

when dilating, often I have a lot of pain around what I suspect are certain scar rings in my neovagina, basically areas where it’s much harder to push past, almost like a sphincter but without control to tighten

Edit: Just wanted to take a moment to say thank you to all of the kind and informative responses I am getting here, and for all of the constructive discussion I see going on in this thread. You all are amazing. 💜

so, I should start by saying vaginoplasty significantly reduced my genital dysphoria, and in general has helped me feel more like a woman - it’s overall quite clear it was the right choice for me (and same with transition overall).

[seeking input from people who use female restrooms]

I recently decided to cut my crap and admit that I was trans. Since then I’ve started on the waiting list for gender counselling for which there is a 3 month wait.

Hi! Im a transgirl who’s very much at the start of her physical transition, and I wanted to ask if people here have some tips for facial makeup, specifically to cover beard and beard shadow. I would love to find maybe one product that just gets the job done as I don’t really want to start having an elaborate makeup routine. Is there such a thing?

I have a pan friend who is the only trans ally I know irl. Few months ago I decided to come out to her. However, I don’t know where to start.

Since the start of puberty I shut myself in my room, mostly only to come out for school/work and for visiting my father every second weekend because my parents are divorced.

I GOT MY HRT APPOINTMENT! It’s not until mid next year though. I’m so excited. Now i just have to decide on oestrogen delivery methods. I am thinking gel, because i suck at needles, more so doing it myself. But i have a cat i love to pick up, so I would need to use gloves.

Content warning: suicide, suicidal thoughts

This thought has been bugging me for the past few months. Out of my ~15 partners, only 4 would I describe as “conventionally attractive,” and all of those were decidedly fem (1 cis f, 2 tf, 1 sissy), and they were all bottoms. I (32tf) can’t and don’t want to top.

I did it, I finally was able to start the process of changing my name and gender legally. Now it takes just 3 more months until the change becommes official. It feels so fucking awesome knowing that I just need 3 more months to be able to change my name and gender everywhere and not having to use my deadname anywhere at all. It fills me with so much euphoria.

Just curious to know what other people use for their injection methods! I do subq and recently had to reduce my draw needle gauge to 21 since I kept coring vials accidentally.

Today, a particularly nice afternoon with some tea and a good book made me aware of one of the greatest things about transition for me: Allowing myself to be soft and permitting softness in my life.

cw: TERFs and general transphobia

No, but seriously, I’d love to have someone growing inside me. That’s my ultimate wish. I REALLY want to be pregnant :(

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[Asking MtF people who have had genital surgery, ideally in Chicago]

https://www.thepinknews.com/2024/11/12/educational-psychologists-open-letter-cass-review-trans/

Does anybody have research links for scientists/health experts reviewing the Cass review?

I’ve recently heard the phrase “anything that can be taken sublingual can be taken rectally”.

I’ve been getting more comfortable with the idea of starting hrt. The 2 main reasons I havent yet are the current US politics and also I’m not ready for my parents to know about that yet and as far as I am aware they would know because I’m on their insurance and it would be in the bill. Diy avoids both of those things though. The one thing idk about is actually paying for it. I’m in college rn and while I did make a good amount of money over the summer, spending $20 per month or however much it is doesn’t really sound great but because it is something I genuinely need im not sure and I just want to avoid going through my parents and the medical system

Tl; dr: Had a discussion with my parents, that resulted in them spitting one hell of a lot of transphobic shit, and I ended up harming myself a bit because of it (nothing serious though, just hurt myself without injuring).

An analogy: knowing that I’m transgender and unable to transition due to my career is like water dripping into a cup, there’s a few drops in there already, enough to cover the bottom, enough to go “well, there’s definitely something in there” but sometimes random waves of dysphoria come and drip more into the cup. The tap is usually dripping, sometimes it doesn’t drio, but usually it does. Eventually, that cup fills all the way up, and it starts overflowing, that’s when it becomes too much to ignore, and it’s sitting right there in front of you demanding you to do something. Sometimes you can dump some water out, sometimes you can nearly empty the cup, but there’s always some drops left in it.

Hi, I took my first estradiol cypionate injection this Sunday after staring at the bottle for about a month and I’ve been experiencing some muscle soreness since. I just want to make sure I haven’t fucked up something beyond repair, and it would be nice to talk to some humans about this rather than just following directions off the internet. I’ll include my process at the bottom but if someone can tell me “no that happens to everyone, you’re good” it would really help me. I understand there’s a lot more that goes into DIY HRT and I’m working towards that too.

If there were no restrictions other than physics and you could have any body you want. Like four arms, elf ears, snake lower body, double vagina, whatever you want. I’ve been thinking about how I want to change my body a lot lately and it’s got me wondering what people would want if they could really choose. Look like a specific celebrity? Be a real life anime girl? Be an amorphous shifting mass as free-form as thought? Be a giant space station? I just keep wondering what bodes we would choose if we really had the choice.

Anyone have any recommendations for larger walking shoes for women that are fairly durable? I’m not looking for super stylish, just shoes that will last. Same goes for the underwear, as getting stuff that lasts is a real pain when you don’t know which are the better brands. I’d prefer more expensive stuff if folks know that it’s good quality.

In my experience, dysphoric thoughts can be contagious in a way, a particular, dysphoric way of seeing can transmit to other dysphoric trans people who may have not have considered that way of seeing.

For obvious reasons, I desperately want to get out of the United States. Unfortunately, every country I look at doesn’t seem interested in gaining a retail worker with no savings.

I’ve gone my whole life (I’m 35) NOT thinking I was trans but now I do, wtf am I supposed to do with this? How do I find out for sure? Am I allowed to be a trans lesbian because I’m not attracted to men? Can I even come out, when it will ruin my whole life? I’m jealous of the youth, being old sucks.

Hello,

I had never tried taking it orally, but had to switch due to life circumstances and I swear it's made a big difference